Day 93

So, things have started to settle down. Every day I panic about leaving late for school, run to school, arrive to lessons panting and attempt to concentrate for an hour. Sometimes two hours. Double lessons are rough.

At home I lead a strange half-existance of youtubing, general internetting, eating and sleeping. I've only recently been really getting in to youtube. Only about a week ago did I discover the wonder that is vlogging, and the legends who post their crazy thoughts on youtube for the world to laugh at. Just kidding.

It seems amazing to me that someone can make a living from talking to a camera every day. I suppose if you have enough things to say, it's easy. And you can get famous - have you heard of Toby Turner? Since no-one's reading this, I can assume you haven't. He's pretty well-known not only in America, but over here. I linked to one of his videos on facebook and half my facebook friends commented saying how awesome he is.

Anyway. Watching all these vlogs gave me a slightly alarming idea: what if I could start vlogging? Maybe I have a huge untapped talent which is just waiting to burst out. As luck would have it, I had just bought a DSLR camera capable of HD video recording, so I set it up (with some difficulty - I thought tripods were supposed to be intuitive) and talked to the lens for a while.

And let me tell you, it felt weird. I've never really been on camera and I have no experience in video, so to have this blank lens staring at you is an odd experience. But it was therapeutic in a way, and as I babbled on about school and such I felt better... until I watched the video back.

Where did I get that stupid voice? And those hand gestures? I'm sure I had a stupid facial expression too, but I wouldn't know because I unwittingly cut my head off the top of the frame. I said "er" more times than I can count, and it was totally disheartening. I went to school that day and barely spoke, I hated my voice so much. I've now had time to think about it, and I reckon it's because I'm english. All these people I've been watching live in America, mostly LA. (By the way, watching those videos convinced me that the one day I visited LA last year was the only cloudy/rainy day in history.) So I pressed play, convinced that this normal american accent would come out; instead I realised that I have an incredibly posh RP voice with a hint of australian.

Ah well. I'll persevere with making videos, if only to record my current strange half-existance for the future me to dig out and laugh at someday. And maybe I'll read up on editing videos. Maybe being a photographer, video is the logical next step. Hm. Watch this space.